In life we all have our own personal "secret" hobbies...Writing has always been my "thing" && i have tons of things to write about so im going to try it out && share my gift with the world...my mind,my heart, my soul...My FIRST love
WHO IS SLATE???
you know that short skinny girl, that says whatever the heck she wants? she is SLATE! she is #FREE
I've been through the darkest of the hells....ive been the ugliest duckling...and yet ive grown into a beautiful woman....i am the rose that grew through the concrete
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Theres nothing more uncomfortable than feeling vulnerable....i feel myself falling into this stage of constant vulnerability....my vulnerability has been caused my the everlasting feeling of "no love"...that moment when you've made a major accomplishment or you've been in the emergency room all night because you are sick and no one gives a DAMN....you walk through the door waiting for that comfort or you wait for that phone call for acknowledgement and you NEVER get it from the people that matter the most...FAMILY...i have been fighting and battling with my body to cooperate with me and after hospital visit after visit, test after test, after my body has been turned into a lab experiment and i walk through that door to my home and nobody gives a damn...my body is tired, my mind is tired, i know that with the strength that God provides me with that i will make it...but its times like this when you need people the most, and when you cant even get a hug from your mother because she is stuck into her own selfish blurr that's when you know that the only person you have is God....i know that God will get me through this mess, i feel God in my heart, i know that God will make me better and give ME the strength to overcome whatever is taking over my health...throughout this whole ordeal over the years i have NEVER been scared...because i am more than positive that God will provide, but throughout this whole ordeal i have always been sad because i have no one physically...my body is sick, and I'm not scared, the only thing that i can continue to do is keep my faith....and not let this state of vulnerability lead to irrational decisions...