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Concrete Rose

Concrete Rose
I've been through the darkest of the hells....ive been the ugliest duckling...and yet ive grown into a beautiful woman....i am the rose that grew through the concrete

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

The VIRGINITY crisis


As a young woman I've made plenty of mistakes, Ive apologized for plenty of indiscretions but as a human its a given. I'm "young && dumb" so of course I'm prone to doing dumb shit. One thing that i wont apologize for are my values. My most important value is purity. Value can also be defined as worth.&& im afraid to lower my worth, At the age of 21 i am a virgin...being a virgin is my greatest pride , but it's also a living curse. Females look up to me && compliment me for my ability to not to give in to such a needed temptation while males on the other hand flee && act as though Ive just told them that i am "HIV positive"...LOL I feel like me being a virgin is a win lose situation, In my heart I'm winning but in my reality i am losing...I'm not saying that I'm waiting until marriage because i honestly don't see marriage in my future, i don't even know if i would say that I'm "saving" it. Theres no special scheduled occasion or anything i just never lost it. I wouldn't say that I'm waiting for "Mr. right" because in todays world "Mr. Right" doesn't seem to exist, i mean being a virgin does have its perks....any boyfriend that i ever had actually valued me more && treated me with the up most respect. Being in a relationship && being a virgin allowed me && my ex bf's to get to know each other more, we had a different type of respect for one another because we shared a different type of intimacy, it wasnt physical but it was mental. Mental intimacy is better than any orgasm that i've ever heard of....Dont get me wrong there have been many moments when i was ready to rip of clothes && get to work! But something didnt allow me to get there, something in my soul wasn't ready to go all the way....ive been in relationships that have lasted over years && i was never disrespected or frowned upon for being a virgin, i was respected i was praised, i was put on a pedestal, i was showered in gifts because i was a prized possession....so now i find myself single again && dont get me wrong the single life is NICE i have the freedom to do as i please....school && work are my only commitments.....But im also afraid that i will be single for a very long time, because so many women have NO standards these days so when i do meet a nice guy his expectations will be that i am like the rest, && when i make it clear that i am not...he runs....its so hard to be a young lady today in a world full of hoes....BUT i have faith that my standards will be appreciated...&& maybe my NEXT wont see me being a virgin as a hindrance but as a blessing && who know's he may just be the one to END "The VIRGINITY crisis"....